Monday, April 27, 2009

♥ tears are free...

crying is the only way to make me feel better...

Nobody can understand how I feel...

I dunno but sometimes I find tt he is alittle tired tired of the way I feel Abt life the way I can't even help myself in such times... guess he ran out of words to say or to console cuz no matter how much he tries to brighten up my days I will still feel as dark deep in.... Till now I guess (he thinks) the best thing is not say anything not do anything because its already a norm to him that I'm like that in such period of times....
I myself would be tired of my own mood my behavior etc not to mention him... Guess it will be really tough on someone to hab such a patience to deal with ppl like me moreover its in such bad times now... There's no time for such nonsense...

P.S. Sometimes I hope I could turn back the time to 040707...

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♥ blues

blue is the best word to describe my monday....

Feeling so down & moody today... All the negative thoughts Abt life...

Sometimes I wonder wad's the minimum requirement for one to live on?

I really cannot predict how my future will be if I dun further my studies if I dun upgrade myself... Where can I work? Wad can I work as? Wad is my actual interest?

Signs I really know nuts... I'm just living day by day...

Seriously study is not my cup of coffee but where can I be if I dun study?

I'm suffering from insomnia... every time I close my eyes words questions keep popping by stopping me from sleep! Waking up feeling so restless and negative...
I dun even hab time to jog or do some sports everyday is so stagnant for now... Just hoping for this exam to get over and @ least give me a pass I dun expect much...

There's no news from the uni guess I'm out of the list... Sighs. Ok wads my next plan? This is the question I keep asking myself now...

Shit I feel just so useless...

I wonder how some ppl can just happy go lucky all their life...

I just wanna be HAPPY..!

And I need some SLEEP..!

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Thursday, April 23, 2009

♥ They r back!

WHhhOoooo i miss them and they r finnally back in town..

went da pick them up with my blur sis... @ 3:40am in the morning! YAwwwnns...

Moommy is so excited abt the trip and keep telling us abt it.. the whole journey back...

finally settled she got us some nice cute stuffs.. do a little unpacking and off to bed at 6am in the morning! wHhoooo MAc breakkie anyone?

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Monday, April 20, 2009

♥ TOOTH ACHE!!!

Im having a rather bad tooth ache, i swear its killing me! u noe wad i just felt like plucking the damn tooth out of my mouth!! BITESss... its hindering me from sleeping!

i could teared due to the drilling its giving me! and i totally cannot concentrate in class... i went to the dentist immediately after class.. doctor jeevan gave me 2 choices either to do the root canal treatment or to take medication but its only for a short term cure eventually i still have to do the root canal to get rid of the pain totally...

due to my pain, my tempered got worst and the poor guy here has to tolerate with me and my temper... im soo SOrryy dear... couldnt control myself!

just one day after taking antibiotics, the pain seems to worsen... no choice have to go for the root canal treament and i was referred to a specialist @ lucky plaza was a bit reluctant cuz the whole treatment will cost me $450!! sighs....

darling accompany me to the clinic and before going there i throw tempturm again... damn i feel so bad after tt... so sorry i din mean it dear... but thanks for being persistant to accompany me there.. ur so so needed by me...!

first thing first doctor chee wee knocked on my PAINFUL tooth a little more than hard tt i teared automatically and kinda scare him.... Opps, and darling was invited in to comfort me.. omg i make myself look like a kid! but im seriously scared can... i hate the drilling sound especially!

he took xrays for my tooth and showed me a short comedy cartoon to calm me down... and then here comes the needle injection drillings sawing... blah blah blah... the numbness lasted me 6 hours! godd... Dr Chee wee said it must be really painful cuz ive nv injection so much anaesthetic....

Thanks to the large dosage of anaesthetic i dun feel any pain thru out the whole process besides the irritating drilling sound....

another scare from the receptionist she said: " thank you and the bill totals up to 880 BUCKS!!!" both of us were stun for a moment i tot it was $450.... she clarified and ya la 450 la.... phewww scare me 450 is alr alot of money can..! hmpt!

the poor boy waited for me... thanks darling..
im so so sorry for all the nonsense i gave u tt nite..
i love u still so so so much...

i really hate being alone especially without you...

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Friday, April 17, 2009

♥ funny BABY...

IM SO BORED FACING THE BOOKS ALL DAY LONG....!

THis will make me laugh! jheehee

Dance dance dance....

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Wednesday, April 15, 2009

♥ the home alone week

Mommy and daddy is both out of town for a week... holiday for them but studying wk for me... rarrhhhhhh...

house work work work for mee... wash the clothes, cook for bf and myself... clear rubbish bin... blah blah and i still needa study..

RARRHrhhhhhh.....

but im too lazy to sweep the floor thou dust r accumulating....

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Tuesday, April 7, 2009

♥ I miss u where ever I am

I guess I'm so used to seeing him everyday... whenever i dun see him, I felt something amiss, something is just not right & i feel lonely... Not realising time flashed so quickly & he has become part & parcel of my life that I cannot simply live without... It was ironic, 2 and a half years back I thought I wouldn't ever met my mr right but right now I'm with him...

Back then his voice attracted me at first when I was diving into the computer rushing some work during my internship... Nv would i thought we would become friends and slowly moved on into a relationship. or should it say its fated? heehee the old fashioned word, the more u wun wan to believe this the more it shows that its the truth..

i tot he was cute when i saw beanie(mr bean bear) in his car! omg i nv tot such a manly like him wld have such cute stuff... ohhhhh~ i smiled in my heart and i tot he was kinda cute. heehe...
i will nv forget the nite 070407 we spent at sentosa, the long talk abt us and the same day we got tgt, not the usual line can u be my girlfriend? but something special and sweet.... tt keeps me smiling till now whenever i tot of it. [=

It wasn't easy @ first maybe bcuz I'm so used being alone/ single before this relationship but still it worked out of course With his patience & love...

how fast just like a flash of light, we are officially TWO years. still counting of course... Till we get married have kids and grow old still loving and holding hands together... i nv want this to end..

I've nv looked forward to my future till I met him...

I love you my only guy...
and the only u who i wanna grow old with

Although there are bad times, arguments, shoutings, mood swings blah blah blah, those consitute the essential procedure to a healthy and even more loving relationship...

the hurtful words that we used to say in an arguement is not meant to hurt each other, that is wad i am very sure of. those were just words that we said without thinking thru especially when we were both angry however sometimes those were the most hurtful words that pierced thru the heart. right?

let bygones be bygones...
there's nv hatred in a relationship right? @least i noe in ours there NONE
forgive and forget is the best medicine..

i love u still no matter wad...

Happy 24 Months & still counting
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Thank you for the colourful & wonderful 2 years
and actually i've learnt some bit and pieces of life from u
SMiles...

oh and didnt i tell u
u make me feel like a princess.
can u Never stop treating me like a princess?

Labels: everyday is like the first day we met...

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Sunday, April 5, 2009

♥ Quickiest recovery to my boy

hurry hurry recover boy...
poor thing, the flu just love u so much...

but not as much as i do...
rarrhhhh...

i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u....

sick sick go away come again another day..
opps maybe not anymore..

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Thursday, April 2, 2009

♥ sorry post

im so sorry daa
broke my promise not to burst out.
but i did it again...

i really dunno how to control my emotions, i suck at it.

but anyway it was planned to be a surprise and i think i suck at planning things too. practically every little thing...

thinking back i think i've nv excel in anything...

thanks for loving me still...
hope u will nv one day get tired of me and my cranky temper...
that's the only thing im not looking forward to.

i hope ur doing alright whenever and wherever u r... just never give up, its just the way we look at things and how r we gonna spend our every min and every hr... life wld be beautiful if we look @ a different angle.

wasted one full day of not studying. i dunno if i still got the mood to study nevertheless i will try.

P.S i have a small request can u not procastinate things that have to be done?
(no offence just a request)

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Sunday, March 29, 2009

♥ Brand new start after each quarrel...

only if i dun have to study i would be right beside him now and then...

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Friday, March 27, 2009

♥ being nobody is the best...

nv ending quarrels on even the most trival matters...
i dun understand why...
is it just us or its the same for every couple?

its like rock hits a rock when we argue. nobody wants to give in. it used to be him.. but i tried today and it makes things worst...

1 year ago and 1 year after is different...
maybe
perhapes
i dont know...

weather changes every hr every min..
even economic downturns
i guess human changes too...
what abt feelings?